Have you ever seen one of those commercials advertising a medicine and after explaining the one ailment it cures or treats it takes double the time after that to explain the possible side effects? They continue with a whole new list of ailments until you say to yourself, "What was this supposed to treat again?" And then you're supposed to say what? "Oh YEAH! Well, at least I don't have an ear ache anymore!"
It reminds me when I was a kid (and I don't mean to tell on my brother) but I would have a cramp in my leg or would have just stubbed my toe -for example- and he would tell me, "I know how to make it stop hurting! How about I punch you in your arm?" Uh..how is that gonna make it stop hurting? "Because the pain from hitting you will be more and that way you will forget about your toe hurting!" That's just replacing one pain for another. I guess that's what chemo-therapy is.
Yousuf has been pretty sick the past several days, only being slightly better today. Still a lot of pain in his arms, legs and feet. The picture of Lightening Mc Queen, on his pillow case, is camouflaged by tiny golden hairs. The side of his head Yousuf sleeps on the most is completely bald now. He had a bad case of diarrhea that caused him to soil his pants a few times. Any small disagreement usually leads to a pale skinned little boy to turn an array of different colors. All you hear are the sounds of grinding teeth and constant growls. As soon as I open my mouth to come up with a solution the growls become louder. All the while, little Yousuf agrees to lay in my arms. His show of hatred for me lays in something deeper and he knows that. He's confused, scared, in pain, and doesn't know why. I don't want to topple all of that with guilt for his ruthless behavior.
The other day when I took Yousuf to assist him in the bathroom he said to me, "Mama, just me and you. We're a team!"
I will keep that in mind while we continue to experience the "fine print" of side effects on all those medicine bottles he's taking on the only ONE (but deadly) ailment he has. Combating the "fine print", with a source, with which you never see any list of side effects (except positive ones): Diet and nutrition.